papa is in davao city today, attending a meeting for the MAWD Sportsfest.





He's been encouraging me to post in our blog. Its been a very long time since my last post. Its not just i dont have the time (coz im directly entertaining customers, or my computer is a snail), its just that i feel im not really good with words, and expressing my thoughts. this has been the perrenial complain of papa about me being not good in communication and its ironic to think i was then a speaker for the 'Communication' topic in the Supervisory Development Course... haha... Then i will quickly rebut that its not me who is the problem, but him who is so insensitive and 'manhid' to understand and can not read the words between the lines!!! Haha ... it will be then the beginning of a quarrel....




By the way, its true that 2007 has been a bumpy ride in our marriage.... Its the year I experienced crying pails of pails of tears.... sleepless nights of crying and anger.... headaches and heartaches ... its also the year i suffered vertigo and asthma attacks... yes pa, 2007 has been a difficult one to me...




All my life i have kept my self steem and trust intact, 2007 was the year it was put to test... papa knows why. (or i am just assuming... again?)





There were times i questioned God why He let me experienced those bad times, why He allowed it when i believe i was been a good child... obedient... All my life i've been pambered and loved being the youngest in the family... and now that i am married i can not get the little consideration from the man i loved... i became possessive and my tolerance level went down... i easily flares up... anger bursts became frequent even in front of my kids...i became irritable and become a totaly different person, even i dont know myself anymore. im surprised of myself doing things i dont think im capable of doing...



Yes... may be i am just so overly reacting... as papa said im just fuzzing on petty things...



In fairness to papa, he said he was just being himself... outgoing... a barkada man... alcohol and ratsada lover... yes, this was him, i should know coz we have known each other since college days.... but my head and heart refused to understand it, i cant accept the fact that he's still acting like the days when he had no wife and kids yet... for me its being irresponsible and selfish...



Papa cant understand why i just let myself asleep while waiting for him to come home... Just the thought of papa not in my side gives me quiver... I cant imagine opening our door in the wee hours with papa falling in the floor with body and face full of blood... my mind is full of wild thoughts... i cant even dare to close my eyes...



We've been ok for the 1st 4 years.. i understand his ratsada from time to time... and i completely support it... who am i to surpress his happiness? but the beginning of 2007 was just too much to bare... im not used to it... we seem to disagree on many things, especially on family matters.... i want our family to be intact, spending quality times with kids (which is rare considering our work)... with each other (we have opposite views on this)...



I sometimes rationalize that our differences stems from our different family backgrounds... we grew in 2 different worlds... i grew in a simple closely tied family while he grew up in a broken /fragile one... i saw my mother as the queen ant in our home and my father as the 'servant/ soldier' ant... while theres was the opposite... we grew up with the rule in mind that children should be home immediately after school... nanay cant sleep until all of us is home... while he grew up with no restrictions... no one to shephered them home... and i totally understand him... but its just hard to ACCEPT...

Question???????


I really wonder how to include photos on my blog.....

I want to post Gan2 and Ella's pics...

????????????????????????????

Five Year Itch

By Roger DobsonSunday, 28 October 2007
Newlyweds could once expect at least seven years before the rot set in. But new research suggests that many couples are now feeling the five-year itch.

Scientists have discovered that couples begin to grow fed up with each other after just four years and are at peak risk of divorce just before their fifth anniversary. Researchers in the US, Russia and Scandinavia investigating the longevity of relationships found that the "honeymoon period" lasts for less than five years, with most divorces likely to happen between five and 10 years into the marriage. If couples get through this patch, then the chances are they'll stay together indefinitely. As people become more affluent, the cost of splitting up can be a powerful factor in keeping couples together.

"One of the explanations for these changes in divorce risk is that during the first decade of marriage both partners go through crucial life-course transitions and challenging experiences – completion of education, building [a] career, bearing children, and so on," said one of the lead researchers, Aiva Jasilioniene, in a working paper from the Max Planck Institute in Germany.

"During the later years, the couple have developed strategies to deal with problems as they arise."
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Year 2007 was our fifth year as a married couple. I can assume that the "5 yr itch" contributed much to how my relationship with tetel went through during this year.... well, maybe I can use it as an excuse to my " " during this stage of our being 'mag-asawa'.

Our 5 th year has been a bumpy rugged ride... It is during this stage that tetel saw the BAD ROTTEN side of me.

Yup, 2007 was such a bad year for me.... 2 vehicular accidents that contributed to my scar face.... BARKADA to max was my bisyo.... Going home on wee hours on a regular basis.... resulting to worsening relationship with tetel.

2007 - our fifth year of married life - our five year itch

We are about to get thru this patch... April 27,2008 will be our 6th anniversary. Bye-bye itch!!!! hopefully.....

Fast Cars and Barbie Dolls

I'll be leaving for Davao on Thursday. Gan2x and Ella are so excited. So many requests for pasalubong... problem is, i really dont hav much in my pocket to compliment their excitement...

Gan2x wants to hav the ff:
FAST Cars (that's with S, Plurals...), Snakes&Ladders, Fast Cars again (this time RED ang color)...

Ella wanted the simpler things:
Barbie Dolls (again with S), Make-Up kits

Looking at my Per Diem, i'll be able to hav with me 2T to cover my meals for 3 days and lodging expenses... tsk, tsk, tsk..... guess i'll settle for noodles in cup to be able to buy my kids demands...

Nways, i already explained to gan2 that papa has no budget for this weeks travel... he seems to understand me naman... Gan2 is a very understanding kuya.... I luv u nak!

It seems that Ella nowadays wants to claim whats rightfully hers... I mean, she always make it sure na dili lang si kuya ang luv namo ni mama. She's always asking us :"Luv nimo ko Pa? Daku? Daku pa kang Kuya?" :-) Yes Langga, Mama n Papa luvs u so much!

Im going to Davao to attend a Coordinators meeting (with King Lugo) for this years MAWD sportsfest. We will be joining this years Sportsfest in GenSan City on May 6,7,8,9&10.

Note: MAWD - Mindanao Assoc. of Water Districts
VRPM - SMWD Sports coordinator King Lugo _ Asst. Coordinator

We will be sending 27 delegates for events like: Cheerdance, Badminton, Darts, Billiards, Table Tennis, Tug-of-War, Track&Fields, etc.

SMWD! One Team One Team!!!!!

Hi!!!!
After months of remembering my PW / Username to be able to post on this blog (my last blog was wayback 2006...) i still fail to remember what are those PWs. tsk tsk tsk.....

I already emphasized this before... im really bad at remembering passwords...

So now, finally! IM BACK blogging! Using Mama's Username and PW....

Im so excited to be able to log again.... but it should be much better if its thru my username....

Bye!

I promise to blog again tomorrow.